No curtains

Today I want to talk about lying, yeah, about to close our curtains to hide ourselves or our true thoughts. Actually, I was wondering why we tend to do that, and childhood was the word which crossed in my mind. We were just little kids our parents started to "educate" us. The other day I was in the street and I did listen how a mother was telling to his child "give a kiss to your grandma" and the kid doesn´t want to but she did keep telling that until he did it though he didn´t feel like it because "it was the right thing to do". Well, that´s a perfect example of how we have been educated. You learn that you have to do things that you don´t want to do because it is the "right thing", another good example, it was when you were a kid and did listen how your mom or dad said something that was a lie and you did said "that´s not true". Ohhh our parents in this moment were so angry and said to us "you keep quiet when I do talk"; so now when we are grow up unconsciously we tend to hide our true feelings or thoughts because people around us did that and we learnt from them.
You know, it is quite sad this education which doesn´t allows to be ourselves or say whatever we think. Right now, I am over this education, but I can notice how people around me are not and this situation makes difficult to really have a good comunication. People get angry or hurt when other people are true to them we have learnt this from the little begining and we want to be a "good kids". It is very rare to find out there people who really are true and have no curtains, because this means that you do not feel responsable for others just from yourself and most of us are not used to that, our parents, teachers, and other people have been told us that we have to make others feel good, like the kid who had to kiss his grandma though he didn´t feel like it to make his grandma and his mom happy. Because of that, I find people who are not being true to his girlfriendor boyfriend, wife or husband, mother or father, brother or sister, etc. beacuse they think that they are going to hurt them if they are and they stay in a really bad situations for them. So they are not ok in order the other can be fine, how can other be fine if he/she had a person who is not ok beside them??? It is clear that sometimes true can not make us happy but it is so much better to know it, we can manage it and get over it, that´s life. And we feel at the end so much better that living in a lie.  To hide, to lie, not being honest with people is to lie, to hide, not being honest with yourself. And just if we are honest and loving with ourselves others can feel love from us.
In my opinion, just when we accept and respect ourselves deeply we are ready to have no curtains and accept others too, they are parts of you that you do not like, others that you do like and enjoy them and the same is with others. Nobody is perfect,  so why pretend or want they are?? to make them or us happy??? would u be happy if someone is perfect and always does what you want??? so...I hope to find in my way... true people, brave to say what really are in their minds, and keep helping people in that direction.
 To open our curtains brings us light to be able to see ...to connect...to choose...

Let it flow;)

Hurry

After I´ve been in my garden taking out some weeds and putting instead of grass some little stones,( I was so exciting of seeing this little part of my garden so beautiful with these stones). I am so tired, actually I´ve been doing that for 4 hours non stop because I was thinking that I could finish it today. I was very wrong, as the time was flying I was realising that....I can not finish it today. So I have learnt from this experience a very good lesson ...It is not useful at all to be in a hurry to do whatever thing. I tend to be an impatient person when I want to do something I like or to get it and...at the end... it doesn´t work, there are things which take time. For example, I remember one day that suddenly I discovered a book that I really like so I went running to the city center to buy it and when I got to the bookshop...they told me "sorry but we haven´t got this book, you will have to order it" I said so dissapointed "ok, but when it is going to be here" they said "in ten days", I said "ohhhh" and sure my face was expresing the same:(. So...sometimes you can not get things quickly, you need to wait to get them.
  These last days that I´ve been quite busy working and studying I got so tired mentally that I started to lose my way; in the sense that I was asking myself why I am doing this. In sum, I wasn´t looking to my big goal anymore so I lost myself  in the little tasks...without realising that they are taking me there...little by little. So this morning...my garden did teach me..."hey, girl, if you want to get it....you need time..and doing it little by little,.no hurry...beacause hurry will get you shattered and exhausted nothing else."

Let it flow;)

Russian Roultte

Today, my fingers feel like writing so... here I am... letting them flow. I want to tell you about rise and fall, ups and downs; actually, that´s part of life. To be able to find balance in this russian roultte we all are in is the main goal. But in a way...I think that I am starting even to take adventage of the fall or down moments tasting them, they give me strength to keep going, to climb. I have heard a methaphore a very good one to me, it says that you can not bring darkness to an illuminated room, neither a bit of it; but you just have to light a  candle in a dark room ...and light appears.
I love light, its energy, its warmth, its power...it is like love, actually, for me it is related to love. Love is freedom for me, there is nothing else. Freedom to me and to others, even freedom to every single thing in the world. Freedom to be what they are and what they want to be. It is a shame that in this society love is linked to possess, to have, to security, to chains...imagine now it is trendy to simbolized love with a padlock, and couples around the world go to some place and put this padlock together with their names on it, a padlock??? they do not know what they are doing actually....because I do understand a deep connection between two people in a moment, so deep that it seems that it will be always as deep so they go full of this feeling ....run to buy a padlock...and in this moment...zas...this feeling is gone. When you try to keep something by your side....this something...starts to lose its qualities. Love can not exist when you locked it, when we lock something is because we are afraid of losing it, of someone can steal it from us so...we lock it to feel ourselves safe and secure. Birds are not created to be in a beautiful cage and ...come on...do not tell me they are great there ...they are not, why? because it is not in its nature, they are made to fly away enjoying the sky,  flowers, trees, ...and they enjoy the birds. Birds will come back to places they feel good. Cages are a creation of man, they are not in nature, we are specialist in creating cages, boxes, labels to put things on them, to feel secure, full of power or control.
In my opinion, we have being raise in a cage so we think that´s the way love is....but hey...it is a whole great world  out there, we are part of it,...to fly...and enjoy it if you are willing to try to use your winds...it will be no easy...none of new learnings are...but it´s worth it....

or if you enjoy your cage....stay there... be safe! We always choose our way...
...and I choose fly!!

Let if flow;)

Awareness: learning and practising

I want to tell you about some few things that I have been learning and practising. Lately, I have been getting myself into the ericksonian hypnosis world, quuantic physics and meditation.
Now I want you to imagine yourself just for a minute, standing so closed to big picture,so closed ... that you are just able to see a tiny bit of it, you can move a little bit to one side and see another bit of the picture and so on. Suddenly, you decide to step back a little bit and start to see a bit more; you keep walking backwards until you can see the whole pic which it is something great, then you can really get inside of its meaning. Unexpectedly, it is like everything starting to make sense. Well, that´s happen to me. There are so many things to learn about ourselves and practise them, so many. I feel like a little child who just discover that is able to walk alone, she is clumsy and fall down sometimes but she feels so proud and happy for learning how to be standing on her own two feet. She deeply knows....that´s the way...

Let it flow;)

Sometimes

Sometimes life can be overwhelming and it´s in these ocasions when you need some support. I used to be a person who thought that I need no body cos I could manage myself; and in some way it is but I realized that sometimes when you are so tired that you feel that you can not go on... you just need to know that you have people around who is there and suddenly everything start to make sense again.
Friends are like stars you do not always see them but you know they are there.

Let it flow;)

Learning

Everything in life teach us something. Right now, for some circumstances I am living with my mom and grandparents. Well, my grandfa is quite old, he is 96 years old and has a heart condition, plus a colon cancer. He is now a dependent old person, he needs somebody to wash him, to take him to the toilet, to walk, etc. he doesn´t see properly, he is almost blind, he doesn´t hear properly he is almost deaf. Also his memory is quite bad, he doesn´t remember details or even some people or situations, our names, etc.
But he is such a strong man, actually, he always has been this way. Everyday he is facing his condition of dependent old man so well, but sometimes when he is in pain he always ask why is he still here, what is the point of it. I think that he is still here to teach us something and I am learning to see that the most important thing in these world is the people who loves you and cares about u; I think at the end...if we could imagine just for a sec that we are dying in these present moment, what comes to our minds...to me... my family, to have them around, to feel them and be able to say good-bye to them. That´s the most important thing to feel around u these people that u love.
I think that´s the only thing to do with my grandfa, to be around him and show him that we love him, the rest...really doesn´t matter.

U can see him in these pic when he was a bit younger...always doing his duties.
I love u grandfa!!!

Let it flow;)

What I wanna get in life

Here is my personal mission statement:

To empower people to love themselves and help them to find their own resourses to live happier and more fulfilled lives.

some of my values and goals:

-What matters most is my connection with myself, letting myself flow, being present and feeling blissful.
-What I value most is having meaningful relationships with people. Being able to connect with people on deep levels.
-I plan to be financially independent, and have control of my life. I plan to work in my topic & improving my therapeutic skills (learning new stuff), I mean to grow as a profesional of psychotherapy . I plan to acquire my finances without violating my values, goals and personal mission.
-I plan to travel and live in different parts of the world. Experiencing different cultures, documenting them in photographs and sharing them with others.
-I plan to work hard to get what I want, not putting boundaries to myself.
-Having a partner is important to me, I desire a loving-sharing relationship with him, in which both can be truly and deeply ourselves. And every day we are not taking us for granted.
-To see always the connetions between love, freedom & aloneness (when you love yourself you can be alone and then you are able to love others; just then you can feel and give freedom)
-To live everyday fully as if it was my last.
-To learn :
about myself, from other people, from my experiences, ...in sum from living.

Let it flow;)